i_believe

2011-07-05T00:19:00.001+08:00

Hard work and enthusiasm brings success! How true is this sentence to you? I’m being random I know, but I was chatting about something similar with someone. I think I love meeting new people, and talking about live experience.

I’m feeling super tired. Tired of all the chores. Tired of fighting this alone. Tired of all these thrash. Ignore my grumbles.

This afternoon, I was over the moon. I had a ride in a sports car!! No words can describe how happy I felt. My smile was plastered over my face. The guy from the studio was super nice to drive me out to the MRT station. It was such a nice ride (= At least, it kept me smiling for a few hours.

Great grandpa was feeling better today, even though I didn’t get to talk to him. He laid in bed, fidgeting, trying to get some sleep. Looking at him, I thought of my dear Grandpa. He was showered with so much love then. 太公，我们都爱你，所以我们所做的一切都是希望你好。我知道你想太嬷，但你要健健康康，好好地过。

~爱上你。

2011-06-30T23:42:00.002+08:00

Today, I had another crazy day. I was clearing some SMS and I realised I have not replied 1 SMS. It reads 'Lol.. Cos I very lazy to reply ;p'. Wonderful. I really don't know how to reply.

Feeling rather tired at this moment, but I don't know why I had the idea of looking through my past emails to clear my inbox.

I found emails that are long forgotten. Reading some of the emails bring new insights into my life.

It must be results from some quiz I took. Quoting from the email:

How You Approach Life and How You Appear To Others
You are a natural diplomat, reasonable, tolerant, fair, always willing to listen to varying viewpoints, and ready to see the other side of an issue. Even if you strongly disagree with someone, you will try to find points of similarity and agreement rather than emphasizing the differences. You often avoid taking an extreme or one-sided stance on anything. You have a strong desire for harmonious and pleasant relationships, and express a spirit of cooperation, compromise, friendship, and fairness. You very much want to be liked and because of your need for approval and acceptance, you are easily influenced by others' opinions, especially when young. You so much want to please that often you will suppress your own intense or unpleasant feelings in order not to offend others. Sometimes your politeness is interpreted as phoniness or wishy-washiness.

The Inner You: Your Real Motivation
At heart you are very gentle, impressionable, and receptive -a dreamer. The world of your imagination, feelings, and intuition is as real to you as anything in the outer world, though you may have trouble verbalizing or interpreting your inner experiences in a way others can understand. Mystical, artistic, musical, emotional and imaginative, you have a rich inner life, though you may seem rather unobtrusive and quiet outwardly. You usually keep to yourself.

I think it describes me well.

~We're hiding in a safer place.

2011-06-25T21:59:00.000+08:00

My headache hasn’t gone away. It’s a terrible feeling to have a few pressure points on my head in pain, or just plain tension up there. Morning was late for event and stomach wasn’t well. Before the MRT reaches the stop, my stomach has been rolling and goosebumps appeared. I needed the toilet urgently. Once I alighted, toilet was the first place I headed to. Initially, I thought I couldn’t make it in time. Luckily, no mess.

After a day of physical work, I wanted to have dinner with my wonderful friends but my head, stomach and throat don’t well ok. I ended up taking the lorry back to West with Boss to unload cardboards, pump petrol and other errands. We had a mini HTHT, but I think I was the one talking. It dawned onto me that maybe I should have the courage to face this.

Mama made me a bowl of yummy noodles and egg. I also had tibits from my mortal as desserts (=

~我们的倔强。

2011-06-24T22:28:00.000+08:00

I’m having a splitting headache at the moment. It’s just the sudden urge to blog.

I was on my way to the printing company this morning. Having a rough day yesterday, I guessed I didn’t have quality sleep. I recalled I was feeling lethargic on my journey out to the studios.

Today was on the MRT as usual. A guy boarded at the same station and sat the seat beside me when the whole carriage was rather empty. I didn’t take much notice until after a while, I felt a familiar feeling. It felt as if the person beside was someone I knew from the past. I took a quick glance and saw familiar strong arms, iphone, and watch. I tried to stop looking because it will really be awkward if this person beside is really not my friend, and realized I’m totally scanning him from head to toes. Slowly, I dozed off after staring into space for some time. When I woke up, the train was in the tunnel, staring blankly in front of me was the reflection of the people sitting in my row. That guy beside was looking at me. I quickly looked away. He was wearing a grey Transformer t-shirt. Now, I’m seriously getting worried. My heart skipped a beat and I can hardly breathe. I checked my handphone. No SMS. I dread to accept the fact that I believed that there exist the possibility of the coincidence. Then suddenly, he stood up and walked to the door. He stood there for 2 stops before alighting. I didn’t even had the courage to take a proper look of his face. Hello there. I don’t know what was I thinking.

~Appreciated like no other.

2011-06-18T22:54:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was another one of my lousy days. Things don't go well, and it's just weird that once in awhile, they would somehow gather together and happen on the same day. I knew what I had to do, I knew that walking away in a sulk will solve no problem and made things worse. But not everyone around me understand what I'm going through. No simple words of encouragement, nods of understanding, expression of empathy. Suddenly, I realised I might be in this all alone. From the start.

I described life is a journey taking MRTs. We all had different aspirations, diverse goals in mind. From time to time, we would need to change trains. Sometimes, the carriage you are in gets so packed that you felt uneasy, especially if you’re standing in an awkward position. At times, when you’re lucky, there were fewer people, and you managed to catch a breather, or rest your tired soles from the discomfort of the journey. Even though people in the same train as you might be heading the same direction as you, they might not share the same motivation. Those people could be true buddies, strangers, or just people you called ‘friends’.

Today as I am typing this, I shed tears of disappointment and contentment. It might be disappointment in the people around me, or in myself for feeling this way. Contented with what I was given and am fully aware I would cherish this. Still holding on to that faith in everything.

~I'm no beauty queen, I'm just beautiful me.

2011-03-26T00:32:00.002+08:00

Today has been a typical day at school. Japanese lessons are getting more and more complicated. I think I need to spend some time to revise and catch up soon. Korean lessons are not any better too. This is also the period to ponder over which module to exercise my precious SU option on.

Lunch wasn't appetising. I'm not sure why but I've no appetite today. I had my eyesight checked during lunch break. Surprisely, the optician said I had healthy cornea. Okies.

Recently, I've been watching this local production '拍卖'. I think it's a nice show. I often have new insights after watching. The whole storyline is somewhat different from the conventional local dramas. Like 'Smile while waiting so Lady Luck would smile on you.'. Of course I have reservations about the credibility of this statement but I think I just have to keep believing. There are many moments in life one has to go through alone. I trust each one of you had lots of waiting moments before. Be it waiting for the bus, waiting for the release of examination results, or waiting for the right one. There are times which we felt totally helpless and lost sight of what are we waiting for, and the purpose of the wait. There are even occasions when we felt desponent, and on the verge of giving up. This sentence serves as an encouragement to all those who are waiting. But, I would like to add on that we should evaluate if it's worth the wait.

'I'm busy. I'm really busy.' has been used as an excuse way too casually and often abused. Are you guilty of that too? I felt slightly offended when my friends said that to me. It just shows how high am I on their priority list. I hope to be the reason you are busy with too. I should not make a sweeping statement here. Some of us are really busy, but it shows a lot when you take the initiative to catch up with the lost time when you are done with your stuff. How many of us would truely understand this?

It's getting late. Time for beauty sleep.

~试图去弥补破碎的缝隙

2011-03-09T23:49:00.002+08:00

10 minutes to 23 years old. I'm wondering what have I been doing on this world for the past 23 years.

Right now, I'm not feeling very happy. Somebody actually prefer playing her facebook games to helping me find food. So, now I decided to starve no matter how noisy my stomach is grumbling now )=

This year for some reasons, I've been receiving early birthday wishes, which are super weird. It's not even my birthday yet. Come on, people!

Argh! I'm still doing my Korean penmanship. What do I want for this new year?

~Raise your glass.

2011-03-05T23:45:00.002+08:00

It's weird to blog now, especially with the amount of tasks piling up on my To-do-lists. But there're numerous thoughts that's racing through my mind now. And I think it's time to put it down in words before it became just random thoughts of minna.

4 years of university life is ending in a few months. It's March now. Less than 1 month to submission of my Final Year Project (FYP). The stress is finally kicking in. I had a night dreaming of FYP tabulation of results and stuff after supper with zc. It's abit scary that my brain is working through the night, sieving out potential errors in my work. True enough, I checked my tables the next day, and I found mistakes. I would like to thank my groupmates for being so understanding. I've been a bit detached for the past few months due to my committments. I promised them I would be back on track after February.

Next up that most people would be interested to know from a graduating student would be the chosen career path. Embarking on a new, unknown journey seemed a little overwhelming to me. Being the eldest in the family, I think I was looked upon by my little sisters in the past for choices made, such as what schools I enroll, what modules I'm taking. After graduation, my parents would more or less fulfilled their duties. At this moment, I felt grateful for everything, for my parents. I know life wasn't easy. I don't have the priviledge of being born with a silver spoon in mouth. I understand how difficult it is to support a family financially and emotionally. 爸爸妈妈, 谢谢! 你们辛苦了. I don't have great dreams and aspirations like some of you possess. I just hope I would somehow land myself in something I would like to do, and have a steady stream of income to let my family live a life without worries.

Relatives and friends favourite question would be about lifelong companion. My view about this is 'let nature takes its course'. I've had my share of encounters. I'm not picky, as often described as others. But, maybe it's not time yet. I recalled E asked just weeks ago if I won't envy couples I saw on the streets. I can vaguely remember my answer was no. I guessed only elderly couples have the charm to make me smile. I thought of my great-grandparents. Their love was so touching that my tears are welling up as I typed this. I can vividly remember the scene when she lay unconscious on the hospital bed, he sat beside chanting prayers till his voice was hoarse. My great-grandfather was blind because of his diabetic condition, was also diagnosed with kidney problem, so he has a restricted liquid intake. They didn't meet each other like those depicted in love novels. No boy bump into girl in the streets on a rainy day, or boy secretly admired girl for eons and was her penpal. The marriage was arranged. I'm not trying to say arranged marriage is good, but it's the love between them despite not having the courtship which most of us treasured. This is love, truely.

Last night, a few of my friends sang me a birthday song with a slice of cake, lit with a pink candle. Even though I had a bit of alcohol, I can remember the happiness and warmth I felt. I'm not drunk. They were not my closest friends, frankly speaking. But, thank you for taking the effort. I appreciate it, really (=

I'm having stomachache now. Hope it'll go away tomorrow morning. I shall go back to my books now.

~我们总是这样错过幸福那一站.

2010-12-31T12:00:00.004+08:00

It's exactly 12 hours before it's 2011 (at least when I started typing this entry). I know it's been ages since I last updated. Laziness always sets in after awhile. It's not a good habit to keep.

Yesterday was rather an 'eventful' day I would say. I went out with my family after lunch and witnessed a car accident happening before my very eyes while waiting for the traffic light to turn green at a junction. It was shocking. I recalled myself screaming when the car swerved up the other side of the road, onto the stationary vehicle, after which white fumes were seen coming from the front of the car. The car was trying to beat the flashing green arrow, by turning right at high speed, but lost control of the car and crashed right into the front wheel of the truck of the opposite lane waiting to move. It was fortunate that there're no casualty, and the vehicle which the car crashed into was a large vehicle. If not for this, the driver would sustain injuries due to the crash. The driver and the passenger of the car seemed traumatised and did not react immediately. The lorry driver kept waving to them to get out of the car. My dad drove and stopped over. He opened the car door and asked the man to switch up the engine and get out fast, for the fear of a possible fire harzard and the safety of the people. I know I have not practised my driving skills for quite awhile. Witnessing this just made me realised how dangerous can impatient driving caused, especially to innocent parties. Dear friends and family, drive responsibly. For everyone.

Then we dropped by the template after shopping for winterwear. My sister and I decided to ask for a lot. I didn't know how to go about doing it because it was my first time. It was a little chaotic because all of us wasn't very sure about the exact procedures. After the shaking process to get the stick which resembles a flat chopstick, we noted the number written on it and approached the lady at the counter. She helped us to get a piece of paper corresponding to our numbers from a series of drawers at the side of the room. I asked for career and luck for next year. She said it bodes well, especially for the 2nd half of the year. However, for my sister, it's not as good. So, she got herself an amulet and have to abstain from beef. I prayed for the safety for her since she's going to be away for 6 months. Please take care of yourself, dear sister.

New year resolutions are what people would often set before the new year begins. I think I would ponder about what I want to achieve over lunch and dinner. Life with a goal in mind helps a lot.

~寂寞寂寞就好

2009-11-07T19:02:00.001+08:00

人生短短几十年，忙忙碌碌的生活是我们所向往的吗? It’s been a tough period for me, with assignments, reports, and tutorials piling up. Sometimes, I wondered if the things I’m studying would be applicable in my working life.

Human are strange creatures. They do things which they don’t really want to do. And they suppressed themselves from doing things which their mind or heart tells them to do.

Last week, I read through my friend’s blog, and I realized that I’m not as a diligent blogger as her. That’s the reason why my previous entry was like..long ago.

Now, I’ve so much in mind that it’s coming back in bits and pieces, making my entry so disorientated. I just watched a local drama serial, and witnessed how ugly human nature would become. Some people allowed their greed to overpower, resulting in strained family ties and broken friendships.

Another random update: I think I strained my left arm today. The pain felt was in a line down my left upper arm. I can’t recall what I did to cause this pain. I can’t really lift heavy things using my left arm now.

~ 我不信你.

2009-10-24T01:04:00.005+08:00

Today I received an interesting sms early in the morning. It’s about how a friendship would end. I forwarded out to 17 people in total and 8 replied. It seemed like a test of friendship. Cheers to those who responded. First in line was Zen Cheang (= followed by Irene, Kai Siang, Junwen, Ching Kwek, Susan, Zhi Hui, Tuck Sin.

To add on, Louisa, Melissa and Kah Mun were added to the list today and this end up to a total of 11.

~有一些想念一直放在心里面.

2009-09-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

My friend had been hinting that I’m neglecting my blog again. Today is the last day of the Chinese lunar 7th month. So, I accompanied my parents to the temple in the morning for prayers. It was raining heavily after we’re done with the usual burning of incense paper.

Before updating on the rest of my day, I’ve to move backwards in time to talk about the nightmare I had last night. I dreamt of a cat with pig nose. The sight of this totally shocked me and jolted me awake at 5 plus in the morning. I woke up and felt rather scared, wanted to sms somebody but a bit lost in deciding who to send my message to. So, I went back sleep without sending any message.

I injured my wrist today. I was opening the door of my room when my wrist got caught at the door knob as the door swing open. I was pulled along before I could free my hand. Ouch!
Tired is the word to describe how I feel now. I need a place to rest.

~要他能心电感应我的想法.

2009-08-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

It’s a moody day for me. I’m feeling rather down now. I don’t really know the reason behind it. It might be due to the Taiwan drama serial just now. The male lead treated the female lead so badly, but the female lead swallowed the injustice she felt silently. Earlier on, he treated her so nicely because he felt guilty for being part of the misunderstanding caused. I felt confused for the female lead.

I woke up slightly later today to eat my breakfast. I’ve to wake up in the morning even though I don’t have school today, because I’ve to eat my antibiotics. Then I slacked awhile before lunch, and took a short nap after a light lunch. Tuition lesson was scheduled at 4pm.

My parents, sister and I went to Clark Quay to meet a friend of my dad from China. He’s an artist, and I heard from my dad that he had made a name for himself after years of painting. It’s rather amazing, because there were a few of his early works hung up in my house. Uncle Ming Ming came with his wife to Singapore, and had 肉骨茶 with us. There were the few common questions about what course are we majoring in. He also asked about the degree of our short-sightedness. He was suggesting a Lasik surgery so we would not have to hide our beautiful eyes behind the pair of thick lens. However, the thought of any knife or laser slicing through my cornea freaks me. Here comes to well-liked question by all relatives/friends of parents/uncles/aunties: Do you have a boyfriend? My father was saying that when we’ve reached a certain age, people will start asking certain questions. I totally agree with him. When we were slightly younger, homework or school results were the common topic.

It will be a long day for me tomorrow. Let me sigh, please. Sigh~

~M is for Magnum.

2009-08-12T22:13:00.000+08:00

It was a bad night for me again. Coughs and mosquitoes joined the unbearable heat. This morning I woke up with a hoarse voice. The temperature seemed to be on the rise these few days. I often wake up in the morning in sweat. It might be the heat that's causing me the dizzy spells and headaches. I'm experiencing one now.

Today I had my first lecture with my sister. I realized my sister behaves so differently from me during lectures. She chats, sleeps on the table and made funny faces. This is my cute sister! Then, we had ice cream from Mac as we walked to the bookstore in our school. Boss called out to me when we walked past 7-11. He complained that I’ve walked past him several times without noticing him. I’m so sorry people. I’m always rushing for time, so I tend to overlook the people around me.

Tomorrow shall be a half-day rest day for me.

~爱我的王子

2009-08-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

It's 1st day of school. I was late as usual. I went to see the doctor in the morning and was number 1 in line. Before going to school, it was one of the most dreaded process of school, ADD/DROP. Headache followed subsequently. I started my course of antibodies, since my throat did not get better. But, the doctor did not give any stuff for my eye because she said it looks ok to her. Walking through the human traffic along the corridor, I must have missed a few familiar faces. I'm so sorry I couldn't afford to stop and chat with my friends d=

The library was packed with people, queue-ing up to print their notes. One of my friends joked that those were freshmen can't wait to print notes for the whole semester. So, I can't print any notes this afternoon.

Strolling home with my MP3 earphones stuffed in my ears, I saw a woman squatting beside the road feeding stray cats. Then, I was reminded of the consequences this act would bring. More stray cats relying on food fed by humans, losing their natural instinct to hunt for food. So is this an act of kindness or an inconsiderate act to disrupt their natural way of living? It's up to you to judge.

I removed my nail colour after I reached home and trimmed my nails. It's quite surprising my nails grew so long.

~我的快乐会回来的 (=

2009-08-09T17:22:00.000+08:00

Happy 44th Birthday, Singapore! It’s national day today, and I’m staying at home with sister to watch the parade and wonderful fireworks online. It’s rather different this year. I know it’s weird not to go out with friends. But, I’m feeling rather tired after the morning event at Yew Tee and my usual JC classmates did not plan any outing. I recalled we used to watch the fireworks at Marina. The move-an-inch per second crowd was forever the deterrence to reach home on time.

I’m feeling so emotional these few days. I shall blame it on hormones. My face is not in a good state now, and it makes me feel like staying at home more. This is bad. And I coughed out phlegm with strains of blood this morning.

It’s so hot! I want to earn more bucks to satisfy myself (= YEAH!

~It was you who made my tears fall down.

2009-08-08T15:26:00.000+08:00

I bet all of you have realized the notorious haze is back to haunt us again. My cough is better but throat is sore. What’s worse is I’m not allowed to have any cooling stuff these few days, or I’ll experience the scary aftereffects later. I’m listening to YES 933 at home while typing this. I’m feeling so bored. I woke up slightly later to tutor today.

CME had a mini walk last night with Junwen. Boos to EC for pangseh-ing us. Apologies to Zencheang for not asking you along d= I’ll let you know next time we have makans together (= The dinner was so-so, dessert was horrible, because I could not order any nice, tempting, cold desserts. The only ‘wise’ choice was the glutinous rice balls. However, it turned out to be balls dipped in ginger stuff and turned the white ones into brown, disgusting ones.

I reached home and managed to catch a bit of the Taiwan drama at 10pm. Then, I was having this weird, sharp pain at my right brow area. It comes and goes, and goes on even when I was lying on bed, ready to sleep. It tortured me the whole night.

~一天一天近貼你的心.

2009-08-06T22:16:00.000+08:00

The updates after a long break. Last evening, I attended Susan’s 21st birthday. It was a unique party, with “Red and White” as the theme of the party and patriotic NDP songs being played in the background. I’m glad that I went despite not feeling well recently. I reached her place 30 minutes late, but was still too early for any activity to commence. Poking my nose in her room, I noticed photos pasted up on her cupboards. One of them was the two of us smiling in our YOGA outfit. I smiled to myself (= Thanks Susan. Here’s a photo of my nails. It’s my first time trying “Enchanted Wine”, but I don’t think I would use it that often. It looks bloody and a tinge of danger [signifies playfulness in a sense].

I was rather upset about shirt sizes today. Being petite is cute to some, but being mini has its cons too. First of foremost, I really have a major problem of sizes. Finding sizes of shoes and clothes that fits me is like finding a diamond on a sandy beach. Then, there’s always problem of wrong size of shirts I get. Ahh!

Secondly, is the height of certain mirrors in the public toilets are designed. Thirdly, the way the commodities in shops are placed. And the list goes on and on. LOL!
~命中注定我爱你

2009-07-18T21:54:00.002+08:00

Updates shall be. My laptop is is going to die already. The wires from the charger are starting to fray out. But, I don't want to get a new laptop so fast.

This holidays can be deemed as the most exciting one. I went Macau and Taiwan. My friends and I had lots of fun together throughout the trip. The photos taken were posted up in facebook already. For the past few days, it's been a tagging craze for me.

I'm warching tv now. It's rather funny. I really don't know what else to blog about. Sleep is the best healing process.

~爱要大声说出来.

2009-07-03T00:23:00.002+08:00

It feels a little weird to be flying off to Macau in a few hours time and I'm blogging at this hour. I know I should be in bed sleeping now. But, I can't sleep yet.

My mummy, sisters and I went Wisma to shop a little this afternoon. I met Yifeng at the MRT station chatting with his friend. He still looks the same. LOL! I came to realise that I shouldn't go out walk walk with people who intend to buy stuff when I don't have the initial intention to buy at first, because I'll most probably end up buying something [especially it's the Great Singapore Sales now]. I bought a shorts at 10 bucks. Oh ya! I remembered I have to comment about the toilet in Wisma. It's too unfriendly to vertically inclined people like me. This led me to another issue about certain layout of some shops. They placed their products so high up that I can't even reach -.-

I hope my family to take care of themselves, while I'm away. All must take care k? I'll be back soon.

To my dearest sweetie, miss me (= please remember my 龟苓膏, see you soon.

~我要能睡得安稳.

2009-07-02T00:51:00.000+08:00

Today I broke my cup )= The cup Claudia gave to me on my birthday. It just crumbled in my right hand. Before lunch, I took the cup from the shelf by the handle, using my index, middle and ring fingers. The ear of the cup detached from body and the ear broke into 2 parts. My middle fingers ended up in cuts -.- Pain! In addition, the body dropped into the sink and chipped the bowl in the sink. After lunch, I accidentally threw my pen in the bin. I took it up and laughed at myself, and accidentally broke my pen. I seriously don’t know how I did that.

Finally, I finished packing the luggage for my trip. Yesterday, I realized that Singapore is really just a small island, as compared to many other countries. The world is so huge. Planning for a trip is not as easy as “Let’s go on a trip!” as shown on drama serials. I hope the trips would be fun. Miss me people (=

My dearest sweetie wants me to blog about him again. He’s going away for a motivation course tomorrow. Wish him all the best and be motivated to work hard. That’s the purpose of the camp right, sweetie? Sweetie’s secret to smooth face is to wash his face only once a week; and splash water during his daily baths. LOL!

~谁是我明天?

2009-06-29T00:14:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling so tired now. My face is rather ugly now. It's so funny to say it out loud, because I just went facial in the afternoon. It was a tough time enduring the excruciating pain when the beautician tried her skills on my poor face. My most hated machine used on my face is this thing which is said to kill bacteria to prevent inflammation and swelling. It’s rolled onto my skin and ‘zi-zi’ sounds will be heard when it touches any wound. In addition, the ‘zi-zi’ sounds like the housefly catcher in some canteens, where flies are ‘electrocuted’. Yes, I think it feels like that too. I also want to applaud myself for my determination to refuse any item promoted to me.

Yesterday, I went to CC for a mini-gathering. Even though the number of people who turned up was not fantastic, the gathering was ok. We ordered pizza and brought some drinks, chips to eat as we watched ‘Chuck and Larry’. It’s my 2nd time watching this movie. The few photos taken were on Facebook already. After that, Jean, Tony, Ansary, Kaili, Zhihui and I went to some farm resort at Neo Tiew Road. Before that, Jean drove all of us to Tony's house to collect his car. So, the 6 of us had to squeeze in 1 car. Jean and Tony drove us to the resort. We sat at 1 of the tables and chat till 12+AM.

Another reason why I didn’t sleep well last night is I had a weird dream about me feeling so sick that I lost the strength to even stand properly. Then, this guy [it’s normal not to know the guys in my dream] helped me to another place. When we were walking, I was trying to tell him something, so I was talking softly into his ear. I shall take out the details. LOL! However, this dream made me think through my life a bit, and I felt a tinge of sadness.

Last of all, my dearest sweetie [you know who you are], you appeared in my blog entry because you said you wanted me to write about you. You still owe me my 龟苓膏. LOL d=

~I don't know if I'm on my way.

2009-06-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

I made an appointment with my hairstylist today. He only trimmed my hair a little, even though it might seem that only my fringe looks different. The appointment was at 1:30PM, but we left the salon at 5:30PM, because someone got herself a new look: Rebonded hair. We had a great time cracking silly jokes together. My once-in-every-6-months haircut was always filled with laughter. See him again in another 6 months time then. I must say their hands were magic (=

My back, lower down have this weird bump. At first, I thought it was some pimple, so I ignored it. However, it grew slighter bigger and darker, then I though maybe it's mole. To my horror, it swelled up 2 days ago, and it started to hurt whenever I accidentally touched it. My mummy helped me to squeeze last night. There was no pus, just some blood. My sister was wondering who's slaughtering pigs in the room, and the 'pig' was me.

~漫长的等候.

2009-06-23T01:07:00.002+08:00

I slept rather early last night, at around 11+pm. So, I managed to wake up at 9+am to make my own breakfast. A cup of hot tea plus toast. Yum yum..

Next, I went out with mummy to IMM Giant. We did some grocery shopping. I think I enjoy shopping for groceries. It can be so fun to see all kinds of fruits and food products.

When we reached home, we sat in front of the TV as usual till Claudia came and redeemed her cute penguin. See the previous entry if you're interested in how her penguin looks like.

Then, I found out there's a red patch my right front ankle there. I'm not very sure if that part is called 'ankle'. It hurts when pressure is applied. After awhile, I remembered what caused this agony. I tripped and fell yesterday. It was rather a weird way to fall. I fell sideways. This unfaithful accident happened when I tried to inched sideways, without taking notice the two steps beside. So, I lost my balanced when my inch of sideway step was too wide and down I go. The abrasion against the step caused that red patch and bruising of course.

~Pieces don't fit anymore.

2009-06-21T22:43:00.007+08:00

多喝牛奶，补充钙质. 我今天就只好乖乖喝了. I tried to refrain myself from boiling water to make my favourite cup of hot tea just now. Instead, I drank a glass of milk.

妹 and I, together with 二姐, went to Waterloo Street today. 二姐 is performing, and the both of us went to volunteer our help for the concert. Firstly, I think the planning of the concert lack precise instructions and concise organisation. Luckily, the event turned out pretty ok. Secondly, some parts wasn't very sweet to the ears. I shall not elaborate further. It's up to your imagination. Some performances were great, I would say. Thirdly, 1 particular staff moved our bags out of a room, and was rather angry, because of some communication breakdown. I was abit affected actually.

We were ushering people to the seats. Then, 妹 left early. I was assigned to present the flowers to the conductor, and teachers. I was rather nervous, because the people didn't tell me when I should start walking up the stage. But, everything went well. After the concert, I received a rose from a girl named jin feng [i think].

Here are some of the photos we took.

~每个梦都得到祝福.

2009-06-20T21:56:00.003+08:00

This morning was woken up by mummy's call to the house. She called to ask me get out of bed to have a jab at the family clinic. Ahh! I'm scared of taking injections since young. I remembered once in my Primary school days, I attempted to dash out of the room when the nurse wanted to inject some vaccine. This time it was flu vaccine. The doctor was trying to distract me by asking me about my weekends, but all I could think of is the terrible needle pressing against my skin and the long needle into my arm, with the fluid slowly flowing in. Gross. So, all I could reply was 'I don't know. I don't know', when all she asked was 'Is your weekends going to be busy?'.

I'm feeling so sleepy now. I watched 'Absolute Boyfriend' last night till quite late. The robot looked 呆呆的, but rather comical at times. But the female lead looks cute.

My sister is driving me crazy. I'm going to talk to her soon. Yes.

~你那么爱她，为什么不说心里话?

2009-06-19T22:27:00.002+08:00

Scalded my throat when I drank my hot tea. Pain.

Mummy wasn't feeling well today, so I went grandma's house. Then went home to eat my lunch. Nothing much to blog today. My recruitment agent didn't call today, and it made me slightly worried.

Holidays ending soon. In 1 more month plus, I'll be back in school. Bored. I want watch tv later. Sisters still not home yet. All have activities. I know this entry is going to be boring.

~忘了我也值得被关心..有谁能带走这美丽的哀愁, 能让我相信被爱的理由..

2009-06-19T16:39:00.003+08:00

Ouch! I accidentally bit my lower lip while eating a slice of the steamed cake. I wasn't feeling hungry but empty, so Mummy helped me to re-heat the bun and cakes from yesterday.

Yesterday was my grandpa's death anniversary. So, my family and I went temple to offer our prayers. After that, we went home to clean up the mess.

After bathing, mummy, 二姐 and I went JP to take a walk. I spent $79.20 in one store. That's equivalent to about 4 hours of tutoring.

I went CC to pass Jean CD containing photos of the event, after reaching home. Initially, I thought it was a short visit. But, I ended up staying at the office getting acquainted with the paper-cutter for about 2 hours, till 9+pm. My dinner was postponed to 10pm. Ohh, and a secondary school friend called me and we chatted for around 20+ mins. It was totally unexpected, because we were not very close.

The night before, something scary happened. A big cockroach appeared in the house after 12am. There were screams and commotion. As usual, my parents were asleep. So, I'm left with no choice but to settle this ourselves. 阿妹 was screaming when the cockroach was heading her way. In the end, I used newspaper to sweep the monster out of the house, after repeated attempts to spray insecticide.

~我要快乐.

2009-06-17T21:20:00.007+08:00

It's a Parents' Day for me today. I woke up early in the morning to 陪 mummy to the market to buy groceries. After breakfast, i cleaned up part of the room and tidied up some notes.

Then, daddy, mummy and me was busy to make the cakes needed for tommorrow's prayers. After the cake, we were busy to rush out home-made 五香.

The later part was a new experience. My parents and I went hunting for durains in the 'woods'. I wore jeans, jacket, hat and gloves to prevent being stung by any insects, including mosquitoes of course. Even though I didn't see any durains [my parents were pro at this], it was a new experience. It's like trekking among the forest. I saw some run-down 'facilities' used by people who lived there in the past. There were also alot of illegal dumping in that area. Some people are too inconsiderate, leaving their trash behind in the forests.

Look at the durains we picked up (=

Another random photo taken from my balcony.

~绝对男友.

2009-06-16T22:47:00.009+08:00

Today mummy finally made 葱油饼 for me. However, the shape of the 葱油饼 seems wrong. It's more of a rectangle, not a circle. Anyway, thanks mummy (=

Then, I went for afternoon tuition lesson after lunch. Student wasn't exactly cooperative today, till I screamed at him.

I just came back from 婆婆 house. Daddy brought the 2 durains he picked up at the usual place along. He spent more than half an hour trying to tackle those 2 tough fruits with all his might. And a funny incident happened. 大舅母 bought some polar cakes back, and my cousin was making a lot of noise. I think if i wasn't wrong, he said that he wanted to eat 'mouse'. So I opened the box and pointed the white mouse on top of a slice of chocolate cake and said 'Na'. But he was still saying 'I want eat mouse'. I don't know much about the polar cakes, so I wrapped my fingers round that slice and pull it up and out of the box. But, before I could put the cake down on the table, the slice of cake slide throught the plastic sheet around the cake, and there goes the mouse. It turned out that the white mouse is made up of cream, not those hard sugar icing. And the head of the mouse was left on the box, while the body and tail was still on the cake. Tears were about to fall on his cheeks, but I really couldn't contain my laughter. My daddy used a straw and 'shifted' the head back to the cake and re-shaped the mouse abit to appease the poor boy. LOL! I apologised to him after that.

Emo day. Actually, I don't know how i should feel today. It's so HOT!

~我寻找的平静，是我将来看电影.
那些为爱患得患失的情景，我选择忘记.

2009-06-15T23:48:00.007+08:00

Wow! I can't even remember when was the long time I blogged. I know i can check later d= My mood recently has been weird if i should say, it would be 感触良多. I thank heaven for everything that was given to me like a gift (= I'll try to share what I've with others. I shall slowly learn to show more concern to friends who need me. I'll try k, girls?

Been doing nothing much recently. But managed to try the chocolate fondue that was shelved for quite some time, after i went to the supermarket with mummy to get kiwis and strawberries.

I also made Chewy Chocolate Cookies with the help of my daddy of course. He just couldn't stand the sight of me trying every means to perfect the shape of my cookies without success. In addition, he invented a new era of cookies. LOL! In the shape of a muffin-like style. Look at the heart shape in the middle. It cracked into some heart while it was baked. [I found it by accident and my mummy forbid to eat it..but my sister greedily/unknowingly ate it when she came home -.-]

~I don't want a boyfriend.

2009-03-21T20:18:00.002+08:00

YOUR KISSING STYLE IS SWEET SOMETHIN'
Too sweet? Not a chance! You're the epitome of sugar and spice and everything nice. Your irresistible nature sends guys swooning, but you're too pure of heart to take advantage of their affections. Deliciously delightful sums you up; from the first kiss to the last love bite, you're a true treat.

LOL this is a quiz i did online by NIVEA Kissed and Be Kissed.
I'm just feeling bored la..sigh this few days been really busy for most university students i think..

~I'm dangerous so I'm a bad, bad girl.

2009-03-12T00:05:00.003+08:00

my 21st birthday party was held on 7 March..the theme was SUN-KISSED..thanks for all those who attended, sms-ed, gave me your blessings, greetings, gifts, love (= i really appreciate..shall post another entry with photos and dedicate my thanks to people soon..

it was a great time hanging around with you people..family and friends..i want to thank both my parents for being with me for the past 21 years..daddy, mummy, i know i'm all grown-up now, but i still want to be a little girl at times..or most of the times..

been really busy..don't really understand what i'm doing too..just as my prof said..we're paying to be tortured..rather true..hmm injured my left arm on Sunday..don't look good..and i'm having slight flu, with random stomachaches..maybe it's the discomfort that made me feel alittle emotional ba..felt so exhausted but can't seem to pinpoint the sadness within..weird..

~i'm not crazy, i'm just alittle unwell..

2009-02-28T23:28:00.002+08:00

sigh i cried again..felt nothing went right for me..are things going to be like this forever? i think i lost 2 important cards..i can't even recall when did i last seen them..they vanished just like that..searched almost the whole house for them..injured my tailbone alittle..quite painful..because i accidentally sat on the corner of a plastic box..

and my sis isnt making me feeling better also..hmm totally no mood to do anything now..but still decide to blog ba..maybe because i felt the sudden urge to 'pen down' my feelings..

tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me..2 tuition lessons and a party..and the amount of taunting schoolwork that awaits me on the desk..

hmm don't know why i suddenly hope it's holidays now..no schoolwork..but there's other school-related stress of course..sigh i really don't know what i want too..

dreamt of grandpa yesterday..he came back and 'visit' the apartment..i don't dare to call out to him because i'm not sure whether does he still exist..

~where are you two?

2009-02-20T18:04:00.001+08:00

Sigh this blog has been left "un-updated" for decades. Ok, I know I'm exaggerating a little. I was really busy. And this is the truth. I was busy with schoolwork. Lectures, tutorials, assignments, presentations, reports and what-nots. I felt so crushed by the amount of stuff. But, I should give myself a pat on the shoulder by just being able to survive this week in 1 piece.

I woke up early this morning to visit the clinic. My hands and feet showed itchy red bumps since days ago. On a few occasions, my palms swell up till I felt pain and tightness when I tried to clench my fist lightly. Luckily, it wasn’t some weird disease, but the similar rashes that hit me about a month ago. The doctor explained that the skin on palms and feet were thicker, so the effect of the rashes might not be as evident as those on other parts on the body. So, I’m back to the medication.

There’s only ONE word I that can use to describe how I felt regarding this generation of children: DISAPPOINTMENT. I was walking to the school this morning, and the kids dashed out from their primary school gate. What I’m going to say might sound common to you. I heard vulgarities from their mouths. Those words flew out fluently like nobody’s business. I shook my head as I walked past. I’m not a parent, just a local university undergraduate. I wonder what kind of education these kids are going through now. I was tutoring 2 primary school children this year. I forbid them from using vulgarities during my class. My student managed to make me mad today. Till now, I still felt so unjustly treated. Argh..

~多少次泪在眼眶，我用微笑抵挡.

2009-02-10T17:07:00.002+08:00

sigh i know i'm lazy..but i'm still here..i'm not feeling exactly happy these few days..hmm school work..boring..i can even dreamt about taking my labour economics quiz which havn't happen..

some idiot keep bullying me -.- and another 1 think gaming is everything..think i just do my own stuff 就好..don't need bother so much..

today walked through the garden again..saw that greeny patch around the tap and i laughed to myself..it's due to the small hole in the pipe the gardener used to water the plants everyday..so that small patch gets water supply even on dry days..

i know it's random..sigh don't know what else to type..心情不好就是了 )=

~i'll be your BestFriend and you'll be my Valentine.

2009-01-31T12:06:00.004+08:00

it's been a few days i'm back in Singapore already..i miss the guys there..hahax they are different from the guys here..hahax they are more 'outspoken'..dare to say who they think of, what they want..not like the people here..think too much..fear too much..maybe it's because the environment they live in ba..of course there's bad people there..fight for material gains..it's very sad to see the ugly side of people..

had fun there..even thought the weather was freaking cold..and the living conditions was poor..and i've to constantly breathe in 2nd hand smoke..but i really felt more relaxed there (= the short motorbike rides at night..to see the beautiful fireworks..the small get together to drink tea and play taidi, heart attack..the constant snatching of scarf and kajiao-ing..as i'm typing this, i felt like crying again..hahax silly me..
the next time i'm back, i'm going to take photos with every single 1 of u..and of course prepare a proper surprise for u all..wait till i earn enough money..i'll also be looking forward to you all coming to Singapore for a short trip..

~紧紧把握现在.

2009-01-24T00:20:00.002+08:00

feeling super tired that i think my brain is no longer functioning..but still i shall blog abit..i'm leaving Singpore in around 11 hours..

went school in the morning..queued up for Mr Bean..had craving for it since days ago..finally enjoyed (=

scrubbed the toilet..hahax it looks slightly cleaner to me i think d= then took a bath..and start on my research on my assignment till 6pm..Gong time..nice..everytime i watch, there's a weird smile on my face and another indescribable feeling within..maybe that's envy ba..not sure..then i'll feel alittle emotional..

after that jiu did some last minute packing and researching..

thanks for all those who showed concern..you guys know who you are right? hmm really thanks (=

~you keep me hanging on the line.

2009-01-22T21:52:00.002+08:00

1 word to describe today: ANGER..met alot of unreasonable people today..shall describe the last situation..was on my way home and walked past a primary school..it was so coincidentally that it was dismissal time..i could see that in a distance..there's no need to know the timetable of a student to know that..because you can see the "sardine-packed parents' standing outside the gates..and just nice 1 of the gates was facing the pedestrain crossing..i've to practically squeeze through them to get through..and it's really ridiculous that all of them are staring at the gates when the corridors are E-M-P-T-Y..sigh and almost all wouldn't let me walk through despite my numerous 'Excuse me'..please get me a cup of cold drink..i need to cool down..

it reminded me of something..i saw a car driving on the wrong lane today..in school!! i think the driver don't know that..i thought he wanted to overtake the vehicle but it continue to drive in that lane at the bend..i can't imagine if there's another fast oncoming vehicle..yucks..

hmm change of topic..saw some travel program just now..saw the cows in India died due to plastic posioning..after they decompose, the insides could be seen..and you could see the red, blue fragments..they are so kelian..it's so sad that many countries could not enjoy the priviledge of living in a clean, safe environment..I'm fortunate to be born here (=

thanks to my parents for cooking lei cha again..hahax nice..

~you and me, because of our pride.

2009-01-21T23:56:00.002+08:00

i'm feeling so drowsy now..starting to yawn le..ya my rashes are recovering but there's still some red spots on some parts of my body and they itch from time to time..

hmm my consultant must be nagging behind my back..

'where has minna gone to?'
'so long le didnt come..don't know her face how already?'

lol i'll only go after Chinese New Year i guess..i don't want my face to look like it's been poked by needles with red sore spots during house visits..

today's lecture was as inspiring too..this lecture was one of the more interesting ones i'm studying this semester..self-motivation..yes (= but BOO to those who chat as if the lecture theatre was their coffeeshop -.- super noisy la..want talk? GET OUT! Don't deprive others their chance of learning..

struggled with my tutorial..hmm i've always agree that lectures are important..it just proved my point..i'm clueless on how to go about answering those Chinese Economy questions..yawnx..signal to sleep le..update again d=

before signing off..ah mei take care of yourself..i won't dare to look at your wound de..that's why i'm not someone suitable to take nursing..even though i know basic 1st aid..

~don't look back..got a new direction.

2009-01-19T23:39:00.002+08:00

shall post a short post today..okay my rashes on my back still itch..

last night a cockroach flew into our bedroom again..it was a big one..i was feeling drowsy and wanted to turn in early..just when i was about to leave my bed to off the lights, i saw a big, brown disgusting creature crawling on my sis bed..heading my bed..my 1st reaction was to let out a weird scream..then i tried to calm down, afraid that the cockriach would be agitated and crawl in my way..it was still at the foot of my bed when i called out for mummy..my SAVIOR..lol..and she saved the night..

but the three of us had a hard time trying to convince ourselves that it didn't crawl all over our beds before i spotted it..i changed my sheets already [just for your information]..

was paractically dozing off during all my lessons today..the medicine is so powerful..half a tablet..more powerful than a cup of red wine..

time to sleep..zzz..

~everything will be just as wonderful.

2009-01-18T22:38:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling so much better now..yesterday was crazy..

went novena for dental early morning..i think i like going to the dentist because the feeling of her cleaning my teeth and the sparkling white teeth is nice..i would love it if the cost isn't that pricey..next moving on to orchard for our shopping spree..ok it's not a spree.i'm not rich..lol mummy was with me..we walked from wisma to taka to paragon to far east, and back to Wisma..we only bought a pair of shoes, 2 simple tops and 1 shawl from all the walking..

1st, the chicken rice from the food village was DISGUSTING..the chicken was obviously too fat, rice too oily..so i didn't finish..secondly, the human traffic was amazing..i was wondering what's the proportion of Singaporens were in town every weekends..there're actually guards trying to control the human traffic when we're out of the MRT station..and the queues to try on the clothes was so long too..

i reached home..worn out..then my chest start to itch..then it was my neck..i thought it was just some insect bites..so i took a bath..when i was out, more little bumps were spotted at random parts of me..back, tummy, chest, neck..soon my chest turned red..and everywhere else too..with large patches of don't know what..it was itch initially..then after awhile, i felt as if there were alot of pins and needles poking me..

took a flu tablet and dozed off after much tossing and turning..but it was a fitful sleep..next morning [which is today], went to see doctor..the medicine she gave was powerful..half a pill could send me to sleep..doctor said my rashes is triggered by allergy..and it could be anything..so i don't know what's the cause too..

tomorrow shall be a busy day..hmm all the best to me..

~because u made me believe in myself.

2009-01-16T22:44:00.002+08:00

hmm i don't really have any idea what i want to blog about today..sigh don't know why i'm feeling so sian now too..heart felt so heavy..been doing nothing much at home today..hahax not exactly though..i was out in school for lesson..i did something embarrassing again..i walked into a class full of students with the prof still explaining the answers to the tutorial..and the prof said "Stop!"..i quickly went out of the room..

having a slight headache now..this korean show i'm watching is rather depressing..but i think the song is nice..sad tune with a tinge of pining for loved one..lol i don't understand korean..

tommorrow going dental..so far away..yawnx reminded me of someone..shoo..

yeah hair like grown alittle longer..can't stop yawning..shall sleep earlier..

~i deserve better.

2009-01-14T23:09:00.003+08:00

throat pain!! wah came back from the chalet and my voice havn't recover..it's 05s17 1st chalet..it's fun!! really enjoyed the chalet..1st night was the BBQ..many turned up..of course the organisers are happy..zencheang gave a speech before everyone continued with their eating spree..next we played some games..even though the games were quite childish and stupid, i guessed all of you had fun..then we went for a walk at the beach..

came back and continue our mahjong and cards..slowly 1 by 1 left..soon it was just the 6 of us left..zencheang, junwen, jonathan, herman, jason and me..slept till duno what time then went out to eat Mr Chicken Rice..the rice was really nice, but the chicken is alittle too tough and dry..hmm then we went back to play cards..loser drink..i think i drank quite abit..don't know how much..but i'm certain i'm still sober..lol jonathan and junwen drank alot too..junwen was super high la..

lol then we cleared up and played mahjong upstairs..was so tired already..then we all slept..hahax poor junwen was tortured by me all night..because we were sleeping on the same bed but i was very afraid he would snore or toss and turn..so from time to time, i'll nudge him..and the aircon is scary..have weird noises..i can't sleep but don't dare to open my eyes..i don't know how i felt asleep too..and there was blanket snatching too..lol and junwen will wake up and ask me what time is it..it's so funny..

and jonathan is so pro to upload the photos when he got home..while i wash my clothes and bathe..then SLEEP..zzz..

last morning went subway to eat..3 share a foot-long..then we went HOME!! hahax i still miss the mahjong, alcohol and music..most importantly, you guys (= for all that you gave..

~it's the attitude that makes a difference.

2009-01-07T17:51:00.002+08:00

today woke up so early for school..i feel so drained in the morning..8:30 lesson..walked to school with sis..finished lesson and came home for lunch..hmm came back and slack awhile..

went out and was almost late for lesson..was panting when i reached the lecture hall..ok my lecturer was quite a funny guy..he's a part-time lecturer in other universities such as SMU & SIM..but it's really an inspiring lecture..and i agree with him..we're all like birds in a nest..when we graduate from our educational instituitions, we're pushed out of our nest forcefully..at that instance, we must fly or we'll fall..what's career to us? is it just a job that churns money? or is it just something to keep us occupied? why pay so much to study and torture ourselves? it just brought me back to the BIG question 'minna, what do you want to do after you graduate?'..

my knee problem is back..maybe 'overwalked' le..feet cold cold de..tomorrow maybe going see chinese doctor..sigh headache..wah my pimples on my face are multiplying!

~hey! what's the big idea?

2009-01-06T20:33:00.003+08:00

sigh my mood is super low now..i know it's only the start of the school semester but i'm feeling the tremendous stress now..i really dislike subjects registration, adding/dropping electives..ok some of you might think this is fun because you hold the power to decide what you want take and arrange your lessons..but this is not all the system offers..we're actually limited by alot of other factors..and i'm really sick of all these -.- argh hate school..this is 1 of the reasons why school is so torturous for me..

i think i shall take a bath when i calmed down alittle..feeling very tired now..had a scary dream last night..about seeing the aftermath of a murder..not sure is it a murder..but that man was certainly killed and the medic felt very guilty that he's unable to save that man and lost control..i don't know why,,it might be his 1st day of work..and the family members of that man was screaming and crying aloud while police officers combed the scene for clues..

yawnx don't know am i falling sick already..mummy suspect there's flu virus manifesting in our house because my sisters and i are using up the tissues fast..and i don't feel very well these days..

~oh love's gonna get you down~

2009-01-04T20:06:00.002+08:00

i know it's been ages since i last blogged, people..hmm i finally changed my blogskin..still need some editing..was looking at some of the past entries..i suddenly feel the emotions i felt in the past..minna has grown up alittle..

2009 shall be another new beginning..the mark of another new journey..time waits for no man..there's no need to say about humans..you might be once a someone..i'm not sure about the future..it's pretty sad that things turned out this way..faith had faded..unless there's a miracle..

hey thanks all those friends who countdowned together..hahax 8 in a car..i'll never forget this experience..next year, we'll go marina!!

had a new haircut..hahax still trying to get used to it (= love the way my hair stylist handled my hair..i realised i need to trust the stylist to let him cut my hair..i still think he looks super cute d=

~you know how to appreaciate me~

2008-10-14T23:33:00.004+08:00

yawnx feeling tired even though i slept for so long today..hmm felt alittle happier today..2 friends asked me out tommorrow (=

going running tommorrow morning 1st then go out..

erjie is singing that song again..lol..

2008-10-13T23:15:00.003+08:00

erjie have been playing the love story days ago..from morning till night..omg now the song keeps playing in my head..it's a nice song..lol and she's singing it again..

hmm romeo and juliet should get a good ending..just like the lovebirds in the song (=

sigh prince..i'll be waiting..

i'm starting ti get tired of the usual routine -.- school and school..ahhh!! 我讨厌你!!

2008-10-11T13:29:00.003+08:00

wah last night went in to sleep..was already drifting off to sleep but got bitten by mosquito on my lower lip and chin!! and now it's still very swollen..my lower lip looked so lopsided..ugly )= sian..don't dare go out of house now..i'm glad i killed that mosquito d= i switched on the lights and found it too heavy to fly and resting beside my sis pillow..and pah!! there's blood on the palm..my blood..i killed it..hahax..

yawnx still feeling tired..have weird dreams of killing poisonous insects la..must be the mosquito..made me 胡思乱想..

watching tv now..later then do my tutorials d=

2008-10-11T00:02:00.002+08:00

just helped daddy celebrated his birthday..lol it's was quite funny..he don't want to wake up initially..but lucky i still managed to sing the birthday song together for him before i left my house for the RC meeting..

the meeting was totally a new experience for me..discussed about a few issues..

i feeling tired now..hmm can't think..mayb tml then blog le..

2008-10-09T00:05:00.002+08:00

omg i just dreamt of someone again..i dreamt that he called me..i'm not sure about what's the reason..but i hung up on him after telling him off in a hostile tone..after hanging up..i keep asking myself did i do the right thing or i'm jut being too unreasonable..before i could decide whether to call him, i woke up le..

hmm i don't want to do my tutorials and projects!!

2008-10-07T12:58:00.002+08:00

it's weird i keep having dreams of the same person for so many times..i think i lost count..let me recall..i think it's 5 or 6 times already..last night was a weird dream about crocodiles..i was out with someone and we were chasing each other, then i took a short cut via a multi-storey carpark but it was flooded..and to our horror, there are crocodiles lurking in those waters..we tried to avoid those creatures by standing on higher grounds..such as kerbs and table [i don't know how did the table got there]..but after awhile, some other guy came and saved us..i think the other guy might be the zookeeper or something becuase he was wearing this weird uniform..

sigh so sian..i don't feel like going school again -.- it looks like it's going to rain soon..

last night was quite funny..bryan wanted to go out to buy prata so he asked me if the stall will be opened at this late hour..it was only 11+pm so i replied yes..i thought he was heading for the coffeeshop we used to go during our supper night out..apparently he was refering to the one across the street..to his dismay, the stall had already closed and he bought a loaf of bread and peanut butter back..

i think i need to exercise soon..feeling unhealthy again..discipline!!

2008-10-05T23:53:00.002+08:00

today wasn't my day..i cried like a little girl..this was what happened..i dropped my blue ballpoint pen while solving some mathematics problems..my pen is the kind which the tip can be retracted when you puch the top of the pen once..i know it's hard to describe using words..maybe next time i'll start to upload pictures on my blog le..then i reached out my left hand, hoping that i can grab hold of my pen before it hits the ground..i'm sure the tip wasn't out..but unfortunately, the top of the pen hit the chair 1st and the tip of the pen was out and punctured my left palm as i grabbed..it made a big hole in my left palm..it bled of course..after much explaining to my confused mummy..she only saw the aftermath: my frowns and pain..we went to wash the wound..the bear was unbearable and tears streamed down my cheeks..ahh and the blue ink can't be washed away..it's in the insides of the surface..i can't get to wash it of..from the top, you can see a straight slit across and a hole further in..the circumference round the hole was swollen..sigh i think i just created a new blueish mole on my left palm..the thought of it made me feel like crying again..

and i hate that stupid idiot!! 没良心的家伙!!

2008-09-27T15:42:00.002+08:00

你和我分享的巧克力，我吃在嘴里，甜在心里 (=

recently went out with erjie on a few occasions..took mrt and bus..really wanted to say the ungracious people out there are simple ridiculous..they stand in the middle of the door of trains..once the door opened, it's eqivalent to the signal to rush in and get the best seats -.-

sigh i don't like school!! it's starting soon..my recess week is gone..with the wind..lol..

i'm supposed to study de..i must study later le..give me the motivation!!

2008-09-21T15:49:00.002+08:00

yesterday pei mummy to the market to buy groceries..then came back to have a short jog round the neighbourhood park..

went out to meet my primary school friends at imm..then i so blur and reached IMM earlier..i took the shuttle bus there..i can't really understand why the people are so kiasu la..squeezing and shoving just to get up the bus -.- in the end i was the last to board..this just said alot of other guys there..ungentlemanly..

hmm had a wonderful time with my friends..catching up and stuff..hahax and we watched a movie..my 1st M18 show..erm no comments about that show..felt abit disgusted..

felt alittle 'back to the past' when im with them..hmm feel like making brownies later..

2008-09-09T22:59:00.003+08:00

sigh these few days isn't that good for me..feeling pretty stressed till i don't get quality rest at night )= too much things on my mind that's bothering me..studies..revision..life..sometimes i wonder why some people's life is so smooth-sailing..others seemed so enriched..

there're things in life that we can't attain..no matter how hard we hoped for..

2008-08-26T21:54:00.002+08:00

sunday i went out to suntec..as usual the mrt was packed on weekends..i had no place to sit so i've to stand..then this granny came in but nobody give up their seat for her..she stood for quite a number of stops..sigh don't understand what these people are thinking..

sigh there's 2 pimples the side of my face..argh i hate it..and my nose keep running..headache is splitting my head into 2 )=

i don't like school..sian shall work hard and study hard though d=

2008-08-22T23:05:00.002+08:00

hmm cried when watching the korean drama..i don't understand why i like to watch shows that made me cry..probably they touched my hearts ba..it might seem unrealistic in real life situations to some..but if you watched it closely, you'll realise it's relevant in the real world..

the side of my body hurts..it might be body ache ba..

week 3 is over..time really flies..soon it'll be the starting of another week le..

lilger is feeling tired and emptiness..

2008-08-21T22:46:00.002+08:00

ate so much today..having an ulcer on my upper lip ).= painn..sigh don't know why like that also..

feeling so tired even though it's only week 3..having sleepless nights and early mornings le..

watching Couple or Trouble now..feel alittle sad..the songs all very nice..feel touched..tears 就不由自主地流..

hope gege comes back soon..enjoy your trip (=

2008-08-17T23:36:00.002+08:00

went to CAC ball at M hotel yesterday..wah i can't really believe i took the mrt and bus there with E..apparently we atracted weird glances..lik where are these 2 gals going..lol we saw dylan and his friends when the mrt stops at JE..we're in the train and they're on the platform..and we waved..hahax..

reached tanjong pagar and after walking a distance, we finally reached M hotel..there are already a few people to there..some of them are dressed up as fairytale characters..they looked like they jumped out from the olden days..the rent for these costumes isn't cheap..heard it's 50 bucks..and 80 bucks for deposit..

coincidentally mavis and wenqiang was there..and wenqiang just realised i permed my hair..after 3 months..lol..

the dinner was so-so..catwalk was too long and draggy..ended at around 11+pm..the people sitting at the same table were friendly..lol the guy beside me [i don't know his name] helped me to peel my prawns d= thanks..the other guy introduced himself and tried to start a conversation..oh ya 1 senior came over and asked if i want a drink and get a glass for me..so nice la..

rushed towards the mrt station with mavis and her friend after taking the last few photos..reached home safely..with my legs feeling like they're going to give way anytime..

hmm shall upload the photos when im free..ahh tomorrow is monday le..this weekend is too short for me )=

2008-08-09T22:36:00.003+08:00

happy national day!! Singapore is 43 le..hope Singapore continue to prosper..

yesterday went to facial..was late for appointment for about 30 minutes..a lady took me into a room to change then i waited in that room..till i sensed something isn't right..i stopped one consultant who walked past and asked her how long do i need to wait..because i'm very certain i've waited for more than 20 minutes..at the same time curbing my fury..then i heard some woman announcing over the PA system paging for my consultant..wah then my consultant came and realised the person who brought me in did not call for my consultant..so i'm left in the room waiting -.- and i did not even get an apology from the lady eho brought me in..and this is what that made me so angry..

today went out to eat at bukit timah..the food was ok..full now le..hmm duno what to else to say..feeling so tired and stressed now..sigh i hate school..

2008-08-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

school's starting tomorrow..i think i really dread going to school..lectures and tutorials and homework and readings and quizzes and mock tests and late nights and early morning and cracking of brains and the list goes on and on..

wah juz accidentally brushed my upper thigh against the side of the chair, which resulted in a cut of approximately 5cm on my skin -.- that's terrible..feeling the tingling pain..

today went bugis with C..spent $45.90 altogether..excluding transportation allowances and lunch..wow..but my sisters think my new bag isn't nice..sigh they always think my stuff looks horid i think..so don't to bother impress them or something..

painted my nails last night with a bimbotic colour..lol it wasn't my fault..coz there wasn't any tester and colour chart for reference..so i just any how choose..

ok shall try to sleep early tonight..coz didnt had a good rest yesterday..had a nightmare..cried so hard that i was breathless and woke up feeling confused about the tears that flowed out..anyway goodnight..

2008-08-01T21:13:00.002+08:00

today is my last day of work le..made cheesecake last nite and brought a large portion to work..pretty happy the turnout is nice (= yea..someone just don't want to believe is i make de..hahax you admit it's really nice le..just give up the idea of suan-ing me..

hmm still being confused with all the signals sent to me..want say something and mean it..just say it la..in a nice way please..always say halfway and leave me guessing..sigh actually i don't know what i want too..but if the opportunity is not cherished, it's equivalent to losing it forever..wah im talking big..

just now kind of 'offended' my mei friend..sigh i really don't mean it..my mood is lousy because i didnt had a good nap..

sian..school is starting..

2008-07-18T22:49:00.003+08:00

i'm a lazy blogger..hmm only blog when i'm free and nothing to do..

been coughing alot since evening..wah feeling super emotional lately..watching the channel u show now..super sad..sigh..

人生的道路..不知道要怎么继续写了..多想停下来歇会儿..我真的很累了..

2008-07-06T21:32:00.002+08:00

so long didnt update le..hmm i tml going town to work again..ahh very sad..a few huge, ugly pimples emerged on my face..even thought the complexion has improved but the few huge pimples made me very worried..hope it'll heal soon..because i'm just not used to having this huge pimples on my face..

these few days was dozing off during office hours -.- alittle too bored le..

sigh having a headache now..am actually worried about my studies..don't know how should i put it la..just don't feel secure at all..

ming ming ge ge: thks for giving so much pleasent surprises (= i really appreaciate your effort..

2008-06-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

hahax it's time i update my blog..these few days feeling ok..yesterday was happier (= thanks for making me feel slightly happier because i've been cared for by you..

tomorrow going to visit ming ming ge ge..because he's sick..run was cancelled..hahax on the phone with him now..

hahax shall end my entry here..lol..

2008-06-17T23:18:00.002+08:00

hahax ming ming ge ge treats me the best (= thanks for the laughter and fun you brought to us..thanks for the personalised bracelet..it's really sweet of you..

lol and our boss, alex, is a nice and humourous boss..treats us nice too..thanks for the occassional treats..ice cream is my fav..

and not forgeting my partner, ling jun..hahax pretty gal..sometimes her actions very cute..thanks for all the help..

last of all, the staff there who helped us in 1 way or another..

2008-06-13T23:24:00.002+08:00

it's been said that sometimes when the need arises, you'll see the 'true face' of the people around u..it's really disappointing with replies i get from someone..i went home after dinner with jw..realised no one's at home..so i switched on the lights in the living room and watched tv..then ah mei came home but went out of the house to eat her dinner with her friend..so i was alone..then a light bulb fell onto me..omg it fell on my back then broke into pieces onto the chair..i screamed as i ran to the door..the whole experience was horrifying..because at first, i only felt something touch my back and down..after i calmed down..my sis then told me today's friday the 13..

been busy with work recently..hope my troubles will all go away..like in a flash..hmm got a new ge ge to share my worries (= thanks for making my day at times ming ming ge ge..

2008-06-04T22:33:00.002+08:00

today was my 1st day to work in a museum..it's cool..the only problem is the lights are too dim there..i can't see well in the dark..the photographer, alex, and his assistant, thomas, were fun people to work with..

the people at the mrt station were very scary..all rushing for work..i tried to walk in the opposite direction..got a few people stopped in front of me abruptly like they are in a kind of shock that somebody is walking in the opposite direction..

went out to central for lunch..those thoughts came back again..sigh..

ended work quite late..was rushing home to have my dinner before going out for meeting..was late already..accidentally knocked my left hand on the rough concrete standing poles along the side of the bus stop..now my left hand is covered with a few scratches..so unlucky..then came home had a quick dinner jiu went out..

exam results coming out soon..alittle worried..but never mind la..i tomorrow then check because i'm really tired now..

2008-06-03T21:46:00.002+08:00

it's been a few consecutive days i've been 'un-blogging'..lol too busy le..started working on monday..was late for work on the very 1st day..lol so paiseh..alot of stuff happened..alot of colleagues had a minor shock..hmm it's a total different kind of feeling..like some part is missing out..it's not a good feeling..my whole mind is filled..with those memories..sigh what should i do? im so confused..

went to my cousin's wedding dinner 2 days ago..the dessert was especially nice..one of my favourite..yam dessert..the bride's pretty..

stomach don't feel well nowadys..and the weather is unpredictable..i felt so cold in the early morning..now i feel so hot on the outside..but i think i breaking into cold sweat..coz if i switch on the fan, i would feel cold..weird right? i know..

my sis had a horrible nightmare yest..that all of us died tragically..she keep crying after she was jolted wide awake from her sleep..i finally realised how much we all mean to her..even though we all didn't say much about how much we love each other..i know deep down in our hearts, we treasure every single one of us..thanks sister..and mummy daddy..and ah mei..

2008-05-30T23:12:00.003+08:00

this morning woke up earlier to have breakfast and went back to sleep..was disturbed by baby as usual..hahax this naughty girl..i woke up and passed her the toothbrush and toothpaste i bought yest and went back to bed again..then my mummy asked her to wake me up to teach her how to brush her teeth..so here i go..hahax it's my 1st time..brought her to the toilet with the cups, brush and toothpaste..dragged a tiny chair for her to sit too..explained to her while i filled up 2 cups of water..then i took my brush and showed her how to apply the toothpaste nicely on the bristles..and let her try it herself..she squeezed alitle too much but it's still ok..then i gurgled my mouth and spit the water on the floor..im in the toilet la -.- so she followed..but i was so worried she might swallow the tap water..hahax keep reminding her that the water and toothpaste cannot be consumed..and i started to brush my teeth in the most sbsurd manner..smiling widely so my teeth could be seen..i casually brushed and with the foam still in my mouth, i explained that the toothpaste must be spit out..because im already brushed my teeth earlier in the morning le..then i demostrated..hahax i know it sounds funny..then i showed how to gurgle my mouth again..she brushed for quite lonh..im amazed..hahax then she followed my instructions to gurgle..but the water flowing out from her mouth just flow vertically..and her shirt was totally wet..cute girl..

took her home after that brushing session..hahax went to her house and played with her lo..folded boat, crane, heart..after awhile i went home when it's time for her to bathe lo..she was so unreluctant to let me go..then i asked her to find me again tomorrow..

actually i don't feel exactly nice today..woke up in the morning, only to find i can't straighten my legs..both of them..and my calves was aching..my 大姑妈 says it must be cramps..sad it's still aching..

and daddy told us a long story..we knew alot about how our family managed to earn for a living in the olden times..and the hardship they all went through..

went 大姑妈 hse to help out with some stuff..went the nearby maket to buy groceries too..then came home le lo..

2008-05-29T23:29:00.002+08:00

i went for facial with E this afternoon..wah it's my 1st time having treatment in a proper room..did the better package so i would look better on sunday..hee..the squeezing part was painful..i think i shed a tear..then all the mask, soothing music and undisturbed treatment time made me dozed off..but the sudden thump jolted me awake..there's renovation works next door..then i dozed off again..the 2nd time, my throat felt itch and wanted to cough but i realised i cant open my mouth..not even partially..because of the hardened mask..

while waiting for E to finish her treatment, a caring, but angry mother stormed into the place demanding a reasonable arrangement for the excess balance which her child did not use during her 1st 2 visits..the story is her child's condition got worse after the treatment..so her child was advised to stop using the products and the prescribed series of treatment..

went down to the agency to sign the papers after having our very late lunch at the foodcourt downstairs..omg the drink was so expensive..$1.80 for a cup of Yeo's lemon barley -.- then we went JP to learn how to knit the last part..finally finish my scarf..

bought a toothbrush and toothpaste for baby..hahax im beginning to sound so old..taking care after a 3-year old girl..

yawnx feeling sleepy again..where did u go? )=

2008-05-28T21:04:00.002+08:00

hmm today's a rainy day..initially it was just the rumbling of thunder and passing dark clouds..went out to greatparents' house for a short visit after pei-ing mummy to tuas..wah i think i won't dare to try parallel parking using our family lorry..it's just too 高难度..

saw an ice-cream van parked beside us when we came back home..hahax the ice-cream auntie seems to know i want to buy from her..it was actually drizzling le..brought the 2 ice-cream with waffles back home..

but need to go out to meet a friend..he bought some tibits i ordered from taiwan back and delivered it near my estate..so nice (= thanks friend..

the renovation works wasn't that noisy today le..just abit dusty..have to keep the windows in the house closed..

oh ya..i got a job le..yea (= hahax..shall try to sleep earlier tonight..going out tomorrow..hope can get a decent pair of footwear and maybe a set of clothes..hahax..

2008-05-27T23:15:00.002+08:00

hmm so bored..dread staying at home now..cant take afternoon naps..because it's renovating upstairs..

went out have lunch with mummy together..hahax we did alittle shopping..met a weird auntie while queueing up at NTUC..my mummy and me were standing side by side in a queue..then an auntie came and start pushing my waist and back area..i could hear her voice asking me to move forward..dotx move forward to where? i was chatting with my mummy..we both turned and looked at her..then she realised we're queueing up too -.- but she still could continue saying that the queue line should be curved so that more people can queue up..wah don't understand why some aunties just like to push me around..just reminded me some occasions especially on the mrt..

watching tv now..feeling alittle sleepy le..

2008-05-26T22:46:00.002+08:00

wah today cant tstay at home and slack like i used to enjoy -.- the renovating work started today..i was still enjoying the luxury of sleeping in when i heard a few loud knocks..it sounded as if somebody accidentally dropped something heavy upstairs..and shifted a ceramic vat around..then the nightmare begins..my daddy was awaken by the noise too..he suggested we 3 [daddy mummy and me] get out of the house and go somewhere..i went toilet to brush my teeth..but i saw white stuff falling from above..i looked up..it's the paint flaking from the ceiling -.- ahh how to brush my teeth and wash my face with all those stuff falling..it might hit my head la..went to another toilet to wash up..then anyhow wear..shorts and slippers..then daddy brought us to town..lol i think i looked so shag..

went og again..because daddy wants a tie to match his shirt on sunday..then went upstairs to redeem the pearl..the salesperson at the counter asked where is my mummy in chinese..i looked at her with this confused look and said "huh"..then she pointed at this notice above showing that person below 18 should be accompanied by an adult to redeem the stuff -.- i looked at her and said "我二十了。"

came home..mummy found the reflecting surface of the some spotlights were on the floor..and some bottles of body foam in the toilet were on the floor too..ok it shook our house that much while we were away at og, queenstown etc etc..i persuaded daddy to take down the bulbs too..in case it dropped..before he can take everything down..1 bulb dropped..omg..then daddy quickly took down all the bulbs..our living room was 'light-less' for the day..

im so tired..

sigh 看得清楚还是继续假装没事比较好?

2008-05-25T22:12:00.002+08:00

hmm today nothing interesting..just slacking at home the whole day..slept in..

had a terrible nightmare..dreamt that i was terrorised by a friend of mine..she went beserk for some reason and started to bully me..then there was 2 'supernatural beings' chasing after me..this is the scary part..we were all chased to a dark alley..there's a temple at the corner..a man there help us pick lots and the lots were brought to this lady who is supposed to help us decipher the significance..however, 2 stuffed toys appeared beside us..the lady looked at them and immediately stopped talking..and said tonight isn't suitable to tell us what's going on..in my dream, i know there's something wrong with these toys..then we went back the next day, there's 2 babies..again the lady said the same stuff..omg it's so scary la..those 2 beings are following..and there's alot more..

watched the deodourant commercial..super funi la..

yawnx tired..

2008-05-24T23:58:00.002+08:00

hmm late entry again..yawnx feeling so tired now..my heels are covered with broken skin and maybe one or two blisters..it's the new pair of slippers i bought that caused me so much pain..

went out to play some cashflow game in the afternoon..learnt a few stuff..if you want to get rich, you must be willing to take the risk..wait and see is good..but when opportunity comes knocking..act fast..

after that met up with E, ezen and alvin to have early dinner at maxwell..but we only bought the hum jin beng from there and proceed to tekka..ordered claypot rice..didnt expect the guys to order so much -.- omg i was so full la..we didnt really finish every single grain..i was too full..

then ezen needed the toilet..went to outram station but the guard there told us the nearest toilet is at pearl's building..i can't exactly remember the name le..but alvin said the condition of the toilet there will not be satisfactory..so we walked all the way to SGH..just to use the toilet..then we walked back to the station but this time from a different route so we entered from another entrance..the northeast line entrance..there's a toilet!! -.- we walked so far..tired..

it's so hard to know what i want..let alone trying to know what are you thinking of..

2008-05-23T22:39:00.002+08:00

back to blogging..went market with mummy in the morning..on the way home, we walked along this long corridor where i saw an auntie walking towards us..she was looking left and right then a piece of tissue fell on the floor..for the benefit of the doubt, i initially thought she accidentally dropped the tissue..so i looked at her straight in the face..she's still walking towards us..i'm quite certain she noticed my frown but she looked up at the ceiling when she walked past..then i discussed with mummy whether that auntie did it on purpose or accident..we concluded she did it on purpose of course..omg why some people think it's possible to be irresponsible without people knowing..

went out for a spin after breakfast [mummy's driving]..met E and ezen for breakfast..or rather watched them eat..lol and E spilled 2 out of 3 cups of teh bing on my bag..the aunties sitting behind only bothered to exclaim and 'wow-ed' and 'ooo-ed'..as if i can't hear them..if they could be more caring they should have offered their tissues to save this lilger in distress..hahax cant blame them ba..maybe they think i've enough tissue le..bought contact lens solution..blame myself alil for being so clumsy..dropped the bottle in the toilet bowl..i know it's funny la -.-

on the bus ride home, i saw a small pouch on a seat..took it and approached the bus driver..lost and found..felt that i did a small deed..hahax C must be thankful there's people like me d=

tomorrow going out..hmm hope it'll be an enjoyable day..

2008-05-23T00:07:00.003+08:00

ok i'm alittle late in updating tonight..hahax went out for a meeting at the CC just now..the discussion was more productive than usual..even though the attendance was like..unconvincing..the whole meeting end at 10+pm..realised 1 of the girls was previously from JJ too..lol..

missed out alot on tv today..took a nap in the afternoob..was so tired..just a reminder to people..please do not sms me late in the night unless you've something urgent to tell me..or you know im awake..or you want tell me something which want me to think it over during my visit to dreamland and give you a reply the next day..hahax don't affect my beauty sleep..

the initial rejection don't means a failure..you'll never know who''ll emerge as the winner at the end..take more initiative, man..

2008-05-21T22:04:00.002+08:00

i've just cried..still feel like crying..the drama show is so depressing..losing your loved one just because of a seemingly unimportant decision you made..some people just don't know the importance of someone's existence until you lost that important person..so learn how to CHERISH people..

xiao gu just asked me to go over to her place to stay over..to experience life over at US..she's so enthusiastic..asked me to go over there now..ya you didn't see wrongly..now..lol..i said i'll go after i graduate..3 years down the road..hope by then, there's someone to pei me go there..

pei mummy go og today..she must be pretty happy..because the salesperson there either thought i'm her friend or sister..bought a chocolate fondue..woohoo..can eat nice nice dessert when i feel like it d= who wanna join me?

tomorrow going meeting..hmm keep burping that weird smell out..i ate alot of delicious 锅贴 and 水饺..

ok shall update again tomorrow..

2008-05-20T22:48:00.003+08:00

the weather is sooo HOT!! it's so hard to sleep in peace..coz im afraid of dehydrating..lol i know im ridiculous but it's amazing how much i can sweat without exercising..we'll going to sleep in air-con again..

yawnx duno what to blog about..my life is like stagnant..nothing interesting..nothing worth to blog about..or maybe im just not obversant enough ba..

shall recall what i did today..pei sis went see doc in the afternoon..that's all.. oh ya i've grown taller..hahax now standing 145.9cm..

ahhh where should i be?

2008-05-19T23:40:00.002+08:00

confidence and courage are twin brothers..this is what i learnt from the tv drama just moments ago..i agree..some pple just lack the courage..so they are afraid of commiting..it's so freakingly true..

last night was so hot that we've to sleep with the air-con on..b4 slpin there's an irritating sound coz by the ceiling fan..my sis tricked us that there's a dead bug stuck in the fan..hat's why there's this weird sound..and i foolishly believed -.- until she said "你相信啊?骗你的啦..哈哈.."..it just reminded me of b^4 tricking me there's a purple belt in taekwando..and i believe him..that idiot d= lol memories of being tricked by him just overwhelmed me..i don't understand why i could be tricked so many times by the same person..lol..hmm my face was cold after a few hrs of cold air blowing..at arnd 4+am i cant take it anymore..so i woke up to turn it off..i saw the full moon by my room's window again..it was bright and round..but it wasn't as big as the biggest i've seen..

sigh didnt get to chat with who i wanted to tonight..it's a pity..you just missed a chance..next time ba..if fate allows..im feeling tired le..

i don't even know why i do the things i do~

2008-05-18T22:50:00.002+08:00

my day started at 12+pm..wow i managed to sleep so long on such a hot day..had a bad drm of being bullied by sbroomebody i disliked..in my drm, i started to complain and sob uncontrollably..i didnt know i was actually feeling agitated and already crying in real life, until my sis [slping beside me] tapped me on my shoulder..i touched my face to find tears -.-

E, ezen & alvin came over for mahjong this afternoon..im seriously not in the mood for mahjong at all..just super sian.. asked me not to think so much le..but i cant help it..i lost all my chips leh..so pathetic..

我似乎迷失了方向..不知道自己要的是什么..谁来帮帮我?

2008-05-17T22:22:00.002+08:00

went out to meet xiaomin jie in the morning..hmm was abit rushed in preparing to go out so i forget abt the camera..

hmm had lunch with xiaomin jie, angie & b^4..angie said my hair looks better than my previous 'hairstyle' [natural]..she said in the past, i looked like im having bad hair day everyday..lol i agree with her..it's so difficult to tidy my hair to look neat..she also said i've grown fatter..lol n dey claimed it's a gd news coz im too thin..thks for the treat, jie..the lunch was nice..but i ate too slow..stop laughing at me, b^4 -.- hahax u so long didnt call me by my nick le..it sounds so weird to me nw..

after lunch, me n b^4 walked frm Central to Bugis..bro said it was far..but i dun think so leh..hahax..it was a nice walk la..thks b^4 for leading the way and showing me where's Fort Canning..and helping me to get a 'tan'..hahax..

reached Bugis Junction and coincidentally bumped into my sis..she looked so shocked seeing me n b^4 walking together..she scanned him from head to toe..b^4 told me my sis looked fierce..

met the main lead of the 'shopping trip' and our hunt for the object begins..lol im actually so tired le..b^4 is also tired..can see he's practically blanking out at almost every opportunity..

finished up with the trip to PS..i finally bought a pair of footwear..even though it's not exactly what i want..but i need a new pair of footwear le..

hmm im still looking for what i really want..but do i really know what i want?

2008-05-16T23:12:00.004+08:00

my 2nd post of the day..lol i realise i talk like im drunk when i receive a call that interrupt my slp..it's reali funi to recall wad happened during the phone conversation with someone earlier..lik im high on alcohol..sorry if i shocked u d= i tink this is also the reason y i dun advise u pple to call me when im aslp..it's always so unpredictable what i'll say to u..hahax..

tml's lunch out..hope it's a fun day to catch up with my cousin n colleagues..

2008-05-16T17:41:00.007+08:00

finally finished changing a new blog skin..den my sis juz said it's qte an old skin le..

new hairstyle, new blog skin..left new pair of shoes..

juz chatted with some unknown somebody..said my weakness is being short..felt so utterly disappointed in that person ba..hmm i nv felt my ht is a prob..and will nv will..im wad my parents created..

hmm been another slacking day for me..duno wad to write..too much to say..duno where to begin with..

who're reali there for you when u needed someone?

2008-05-10T22:29:00.002+08:00

hmm decided to blog today..juz finished reading 'Where Rainbows End'..nice book..the ending is gd too..the 2 lovers finally realised they're meant for each aft 50 long yrs..that's long..

went back JJ yest..it feels alil weird nt seeing canteen ah mah arnd..but guess MC gets a nice chat with our dear ms ng n kbox auntie..

b4 i forget again..Happy Birthday Mavis..hope u enjoyed ur bdae..lol will b seeing u soon le rite?

these few days been thinking..but luckily nt dat much le..mayb nt enuff time to sit n think ba..went to my hairstylist on 7th march..did a great change..nt all approved my new look though..but i reali wanted to try sth different..this is life wad..try the stuff u wan try..y wait?

according to my horoscope, today's the perfect day for romance..i dun see any budding romance leh..lol my xiao wang zi..wad are u doing? gather some courage coz it's time to take action b4 it's too late again..

2008-03-29T09:05:00.002+08:00

it's been ages since i last update my blog..hmm was so bz with stuff recently..projects projects n more projects..left 1 mor to go..then it'll be quizzes..aft quizzes will be exams..omg exams!! den it'll be hols..yea..hahax hope tis time i wun feel so unprepared..gif me motivation to study..

some insights on life..environment reali plays a part in how u would grow up to be..i felt the pain n dilemma xiujing [fiction character frm korean tv drama] felt..it's the place i grow up in..dat's makes me wad im of today..not everyone can understand..unless one reali took the effort to know and understand..i actually felt qte fortunate to b born into a happy family..satisfied..reali thankful for my parents..their effort into making sure i grow up well..thks mummy n daddy..

oh ya yest went eat subway wif jw..lol he treat me..thks for ur treat..so nice to haf such wonderful friends arnd..happy for awhile..met zhiyao n kuanwee coincidentally at subway too..lol chatted happily away..wah i was so full till nw..i skipped my breakfast..had my usual cup of hot tea onli..shall end here..been rabbling for some long le..

wish me luck ladyluck..in everything..lilger tears no mor k?

2008-03-01T22:22:00.003+08:00

somebody said im wasting space -.- dotx im back to blogging..shd haf blogged yest..nice date..29 feb 2008..hmm so bored..sch starting again..i hope tis yr wld b better for me..shall update again when im free lo..

been slpin my todae away..dunid eat aso can..n i dun feel hungry at all..sigh..

2008-01-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

fell sick le -.- dun feel reali nice nw..throat hurts alot alot yest n tis mornin..sore throat..headache..nauseous..tummy alil pain aso..

hmm emotionally tired aso..duno wad haf i been thinkin..but thks bro..for remembering me..thks alot..ur sms reali made me felt alil better..i was alil silly i noe..

tearful lilger will learn to be happy de..she wants her smiles back..

2008-01-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

it's been ages since i last blogged..sigh duno y recently nt been myself..1st it was those cryin & laughin moments..den i almost got knocked down todae -.- tink i was tinkin of sth while i was walkin down e pavement..den i juz turn arnd n stepped onto e zebra crossing w/o lookin thinking dat car wld stopped..n it didnt..i didnt react fast enuff to step back to e pavement..didnt get a shock either..dat car juz drove past me wif me on e road..omg wad's tis?

sent my aunt n cousin off to e airport todae..hmm tink workin at e airport isnt a bad idea..it's juz too far away..

hmm duno wad else to blog..ju feelin depressed..wo yao xin fu..

2008-01-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

so long didnt blog le..1st entry of yr 2008..todae went funan in e aftnoon..redeem e bag le..qte useful but abit fat..

hmm bei mrt door jia dao -.- dat mrt went off so fast..den juz closed e door on me..lucky didnt injured dao..mummy got onto dat train la..

sch startin soon le..wah sis eatin noodles..super temptin..

had a different countdown tis yr..nt at hme..no fireworks..went down simlim to settle my comp again..daddy drove alvin, SP n me down..sit at e back of lorry wif dem qte funi la..thks guys for all ur help..aft dat ben lai wan go cycle de but nt enuff time..den went hall 7 eat steamboat.aft dat went kliff's hall to linger arnd..lol slpt on his roomie's bed..qte comfy d= but had a terrible tummyache -.- tink it's e 1st time go some stranger's bed tang tang..sumor a guy..hmm..

mosquito bites are itchy..hope 2008 is a happy n fruitful 1 for me..

2007-12-27T22:55:00.000+08:00

hmm yest went alot of places la..last nite wasnt in e mood to blog..so posted a short entry..seen the new lasalle campus..so cool la..big n nice..den went explore smu too..lol e 3 of us v funi..lik on some adventure..

todae slpt alot alot..tink too tired le..yawnx..

tml goin out aso..hahax..hope can b back in time for tv..n of coz haf fun..hee d=

2007-12-27T01:30:00.000+08:00

hmm todae ate alot..went kbox den mini food tour..ate katong laksa, indo food, n soya bean milk..

had fun la..thks guys..alvin n SP..

went hme..alil sad..hope tml will b betta..

2007-12-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

wah head pain..todae got down gor gor car..close door dat time knock dao head -.- pain la..i noe it's qte stupid but i reali didnt noe i'll get hit by e door..qte painful..

hmm todae went town..malu-ed myself..lol shant b so specific..den went jp..jw said he saw me..but didnt call me -.- he said he was too far away..so didnt call..

hmm my legs feelin betta le..hmm 2008..comin lo..

2007-12-25T01:05:00.000+08:00

merry xmas everyone..received alot of presents frm my family..hahax thks (= for the presents..

hmm my sis kp singing tis song but duno how to cont le..it goes lik tis 'last xmas i gave u my heart..e very nxt day u gave it away..tis xmas~' sad song..

todae went see chi doc..mummy insist..coz tis mornin woke up..legs were so pain dat i immediately sat down when i stood up..i cant walk properly..dey juz hurt..sigh my poor legs..mayb dere're too tired?! duno aso..

tml goin out but havnt decide..hahax..

2007-12-24T00:00:00.000+08:00

hmm feelin e muscle ache..sunburnt..but nt pain..lip e worst..cracked n bleeding nw )= argh..alil swollen nw..sad..

hmm went for camp for 2 daes..was under e sun for many hrs..was okie la..juz v tired..mayb it's e long hrs under e sun dat makes us feel tiring ba..

had a horrible nitemare last nite..abt coffin..weird pple n fire..den i woke up in fright..but dun dare to open my eyes..juz too scary le..

tml xmas eve le..sigh duno y feelin sian..argh..

merry xmas to all..

2007-12-22T00:13:00.000+08:00

todae SP n alvin came to play mahjong..lol played awhile onli..E came over for awhile aso..den baby came over..so cute la..she'll always b our baby..hahax get well soon..

made pasta for dem..qte nice la..den SP ate dinner..we shared e leftover-ed pasta..but he ate alot of rice la..still nt full..

hmm nid get a new desktop n printer soon le..all problematic le..wan thks alvin for chkin for me..

tml goin camp le..hope it's fun la..

life is always full of ups n downs..if u tink dat u're already at e bottom of e pit..dun fret..coz it might b e turnin pt le..it might b goin upwards le..

2007-12-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

hmm todae slpt till qte late..had a weird drm..duno izit a nitemare..got 'scolded' by somebody..n i cried in my drm..qte weird..

den cousin came over to bake cookies..e cookies nt bad la..

so bored todae..hmm duno wad to type leh..shall update again soon..tml wan to bake pasta..hope it'l taste nice..